05/24/11 - Lori

Last year, I was in the hospital waiting on Cassie all day saying, "She better not make me miss the American Idol finale tonight!!" ... Sure enough, the (almost) worst labor was happening during the finale, and I made them turn it off ~ I could not have any sensory distraction, it was just how it was.

Tonight is another AI finale. I've been a bit emotional today (that's what happens when you don't process something for a year, I guess) My Cass started drinking her ba's (as we call her bottle) right as the show started, and when she started to snooze I kept her with me to soak in the cuddles. The contrast of one year to the next was amazing.

THEN my favorite contestant sang THIS SONG. 'Emotional' no longer applied - there I was, holding my girl, remembering her birth and her first year. And THIS SONG came on. This song is everything I strive to be as a mother. Seriously? A woman can only take so much emotion in one evening!!!!!!!!!!!